Monday, May 7, 2012 This Is War.
Sometimes, an apology doesn't cure.
Since you're confuse and even being selfish in this friendship, you knew that something was gone.
It do hurts a lot and deeply, but I'm still trying to smile and act like I don't even care I don't even mind I don't even know anything in front of you.
You feels what I sacrifice was what I should did, you don't appreciate it at all, and you even step on my honor. You really makes me chill of what you've done.
Royal to friend doesn't mean I should be your dog and treat you like a God.
It's all fine to me right now, I don't care what I'll be lose, I will bring my dignity back. I'm not going prepare for the fray among us, I just want to remind you what friendship means to.
If you even did relapse your perfidious, I will never start a war, we're just end up.
Deadly life, should I run away?
11:37 PM
Thursday, March 29, 2012 Friends (:
It was been a long time that I had this feelings again in my life.
It was hurt; and now it still.
I knew I'm really not a kind of person in good personality, but I was still hoping you guys may accept it, I knew it was my selfishness.
But if you may accept all my negative personality, I'll do the same too.
Guys, you all are really important for me.
No matter now or the future, it was just what I hope, we'll get to be the BFFs forever and ever.
Pick up all my heart pieces,
I grew stronger when you guys stand beside me.
And I may smile again (:
Deadly life, should I run away?
11:42 PM
Sunday, January 15, 2012 12.0114
모두 다 비이바이 사랑도
모두 다 비이바이 우정도
It's really the time for me to say goodbye to you (:
I'm really getting tired. Although I know it will be suffer to pass the time, but I'm about to forget you.
Deadly life, should I run away?
1:11 AM
Thursday, January 5, 2012 12.0104
Hello every Malaysia student :DToday was the day that schools reopen.
I'm in a new class right now. When sitting in the class I was feeling so strange.
My friends all goes to others classes cause of our results.
But I still with one of my buddies sitting next to me under a big comfort fan that makes us felt like want to sleeps in class. LOL.
It's still seems sad for me, that my buddies can't have fun with me in the same class. So it's was the reason that I want to transfer class to somewhere that I may have more fun and friends.
I still miss the time that we sitting inside the same class and we were laughing,sleeping, playing, or even shouting we get lots of funs.
But I know we'll be a part and we couldn't get back on the far one day.
So I used to cherish the time we still can meet each other frequently.
I really love you guys. You guys were the best buddies that I never met before.
Hope we''l still be together even how long the time passed us.
Wayne loves you all (:
Deadly life, should I run away?
12:26 AM
Monday, January 2, 2012 JYJ Kim Jaejoong recognized as an actor with his first role.
JYJ member Kim Jaejoong received an award as an actor.
At the ’2011 SBS Drama Awards’ on December 31st, Kim Jaejoong became the recipient of the ‘New Star Award’. The award has a great meaning as it marks the beginning and potential for Kim Jaejoong as an actor.
Kim Jaejoong said, “I really didn’t know I would receive an award. I really feel great for it as I am receiving it.. I really want to thank the JYJ members who would be happy, and I thank the fans who are always rooting for me.”
Kim Jaejoong showed off his masculinity in the drama ‘Protect the Boss’.
It has been a meaning for JYJ as a whole and this is another event to celebrate for JYJ.
Deadly life, should I run away?
12:02 AM
Friday, December 30, 2011 Goodbye.
既然对方无法给你你所满意的答案
你除了放手还能再做些什么？
如果你注定不能给与我期待的回应
就请不要再对我温柔
Deadly life, should I run away?
3:07 AM
Wednesday, December 28, 2011 There's not 2012, My world end in 2010 (:
是有那么点不记得了。依稀记得应该是你说过的吧，只要相爱，不在一起也很幸福。那时候我是怎么回答的？已经不想去记得了。总是那么的随性，你从未打算对你说的话服过一点责任，让我沦陷也好，让我自觉悲哀也好，从来都是那么轻易说出口。
从什么时候开始胆小的呢？害怕黑暗中会看到你笑得灿烂的白皙的脸，我总会觉得你还呆在我身边。除不掉的伤疤似的，痊愈了看着却又感到钻心的痛。祈祷你不要这么残忍吧。让我痛了却忘又忘不了，是在消磨我的罪孽吗？我不是故意爱上你的，为什么没办法放过我呢？是我自己太软弱吧？因为害怕忘记你以后，我会连自己是谁也跟关于你的记忆一样，丢了。那是我自己对自己下的诅咒吗？曾经在心中默念好几千遍的誓言；忘记你，我必须先忘记我自己，不爱你，我得先学会抛弃自己。
像咒语般，一开始纯粹是想证明自己爱的多深而随口说出口，可笑的话。现在却成了多么可怕的后遗症。只能怪自己为何如此认真，把一切不经意脱口而出的话全当成了誓言，信誓旦旦的为自己埋下伤痛。
你不在了以后，我开始喜欢上最初的自己，那时候没有伤，不会哭泣，像个洁白初生的婴儿，对世界没有戒心，不会为了一个人而把自己拽出曾经任自己肆意欢笑的社会。但有能力把自己推入深渊的人也只有自己，只不过因为伴随着和你的回忆，促使我对那些伤痛产生太美的错觉，使我再也不肯放下，以至于微笑也那么疼。
一个人走在十字路口，突然糊涂了，既然走不回我们的最初，我还有什么理由继续步行？脑子空荡荡的，心里空荡荡的，灵魂空荡荡的；为什么你总在离开时把我的一切都带走，却不给我留下些什么？如果我现在就把我对你的爱还你，你会不会将我最后的一点尊严还给我？然而在心中不断的反复问着自己，我知道，沉默，会是你最后留给我的回忆。有时候，沉默会是比任何语言都深刻的东西。然而在你的沉默中，我闭上双眼，看到的却只剩下你眼中的无所谓。
不知道是从什么时候开始，在不再会看见你的日子里，我望向蓝天白云，却发现我心里的那片晴空再也不灿烂，只不过在这片天空下少了一个微不足道的你，为何改变会那么大？最美丽的蓝天，原来是在还有着我的你的心里。而那片美好，现在早在你的告别中逝去了。而事实是，曾经就是曾经，不要妄想可以回到过去。我会开始理解，一无所有才是所谓的幸福；因为这样，就不用再担心会失去什么了。
其实我们一直知道这个故事的结局，但却没有一个人说出来，不想承认有效期限近在眼前。然而明明知道这个结局的我们，有权利选择说出来，或者假装不知道，然而我们偏偏选择了欲言又止。那时候才了解，有时候选择沉默所留下的伤害要比坦白痛多了。
我慢慢学会接受现实，不再在黑暗中和回忆做拼搏。人的心里只有那么一丁点大，有人进来就必定有人要出去，而我只不过刚好是装不下的那一个而已。开始伪装自己，不冷不热，不咸不淡，笑得没心没肺，也不再流那廉价的眼泪；然后微笑着听你说：‘你变了。’因为至少曾经拥有过辨认不可能拥有的回忆，虽然有时还是会心痛，但我知足了。
其实我一直是相信的。我根本不需要想起什么，因为我从来没忘记过。忘记你，就只是为了证明我可以忘掉你。
-The end of 2010. by 南宫言威-
<--- This was my photo in 2011 xD Taiwan was cold Dx
Deadly life, should I run away?
10:31 PM
Tuesday, November 8, 2011 071111
Yes I think I saw her.
She said she likes apple green,
She still having big eyes and nice white skin,
But she never look at me anymore.
Everything seems the same,
But we're not the same us anymore.
Deadly life, should I run away?
8:55 PM
011111
Happy day for me :D
The first sight I saw today's date I was surprised.
It looks fun with so many 1. xD
Today my classmate Huishyuan brought me the JYJ album In Heaven, that I bought online, I was so freaking happy x)
<-- Actually I don't like this cover's colour. I hoped it was red colour, the jaejoong's colour xD
<-- It looks pretty with JYJ's picture. Nice design.
LOL I love this page in the lyrics book most x)
Full page of jaejoong!
JYJ Album Tracklist:
01 Get out
02 In Heaven (Narr. 김정은)
03 낙엽 (Fallen Leaves)
04 소년의 편지 (The Boy’s Letter)
05 MISSION
06 I.D.S (I Deal Scenario)
07 삐에로 (Pierrot)
08 You’re
09 NINE
10 A Song Without A Name
-- Get Out was my favourite song and it's my blog's background music right now x)
In Heaven was really a touched song, I was almost cry out when watching the MV.
Can't stop listening to JYJ and TVXQ's songs, I think I've addicted x)
JYJ and TVXQ hwaiting! :)
AKTF <3
Deadly life, should I run away?
8:53 PM
291011
Today was my first time go to Butterworth alone to meet my fb friend, who I was used to call her 'Young Master'. xDD
I was very nervous when I get on the ferry, feels like everybody was looking at me, it was strange. LOL.
^-- The view was nice (:
^-- I'm still looking fat xD
<-- The dessert that my young master treated me, named Chocolate Prince.
Quite delicious, but I can't get why it named Chocolate Price, I don't see any prince xD
Playing alot in the shopping mall Pacific, though the mall was too big and was strange for me, it's still fun.
I think I'm getting fatter after young master treated me that prince TT
LOL
Deadly life, should I run away?
8:34 PM
Thursday, October 27, 2011 Get Out lyrics (by JYJ)
어 어 그래 그래 나도 사랑해
嗯 嗯 是啊 是啊 我都愛你
Yes, I love you too
사랑해 하면서 넌 그와 입을 맞추고
你說愛我 卻又吻他
You say you love me but you kiss him
이미 너의 심장은 그의 손을 느끼고
你的心 已經感受到他的手
Your heart is already feeling his touch (you hide and deceive)
(감추고 속이고 있어)
隱瞞著 欺騙著
전화를 끊어도 너의 모습은 보이고
掛了電話 你的樣子仍浮現眼前
Even when you hang up, I see you니가 아냐 아냐 해도 결국엔 너인걸
你不斷否認 終究還是你
You deny and deny but it ends up being you
(내가 사랑한 너야~)
我曾深愛的你
(I used to love you)Oh baby tell me why you act so strange
but tonight I don't need a damn explain
하지만 이미 난 모두 알고 있었어 난
可惜我全部都已知道得一清二楚
But I already knew everything너와 함께 있는 그 녀석도 필요 없어 제발 좀 사라져
和你在一起的那傢伙 我通通都不需要 拜託 消失吧
I don't even need that guy who's with you either Please go away- it's fine됐어 남은 행복 갖고 꺼져버려!
夠了 帶著殘留的幸福 給我滾吧!
Take the remaining happiness and piss off모두 다 비이바이 사랑도 모두 다 비이바이 우정도
全部都 Bye Bye 愛情也是 全部都 Bye Bye 友情也是
** Bye bye to everything Bye bye to love and everything else even friendshipfeels like I'm ready no love I'm done with
끝나버린 사랑이라고해, 더 말할 필요 없잖아
都說了愛情已經結束 不是已經沒什麼好說嗎？
Say that it's an ended love,There's no need for other words모두 다 비이바이 추억도 모두 다 비이바이 슬픔도
全部都 Bye Bye 記憶也是 全部都 Bye Bye 傷心也是
Bye bye to everything,Bye bye to memories, bye bye to sadnessfeels like I'm ready no love I'm done with
끝나버린 사이라고 말해, 다 끝난거야 baby
都說了關係已經結束 全部已告一段落了啊
Say that it's an ended love, it's over baby하필 나의 그녀에게 넌 입을 맞추고
為什麼你偏偏吻了我的她
You kissed my girl친구의 여자인걸 알면서 다가왔고
明知是朋友的女友 卻仍走近
You approached her even when you knew she was your friend's girl (you hide and deceive)(감추고, 속이고, 있어)
隱瞞著 欺騙著
우연히 마주친 내시선 피하지 않고
偶然碰上我的視線 眼神也不閃避
You don't even avoid our coincidentally met eyes니가 아냐 아냐 해도 결국엔 너인걸
你不斷否認 終究還是你
You deny and deny but it ends up being you(널 믿었었던 나야~)
我曾深信不疑的你
(I used to trust you)
Oh baby tell me why you act so strange
but tonight I don't need a damn explain
하지만 이미 난 모두 알고 있었어 난
可惜我全部都已知道得一清二楚
But I already knew everything
너와 함께 있는 그 녀석도 필요 없어 제발 좀 사라져
和你在一起的那傢伙 我通通都不需要 拜託 消失吧！
I don't even need that guy who's with you either Please go away- it's fine됐어 남은 행복 갖고 꺼져버려!
夠了 帶著殘留的幸福 給我滾吧!
Take the remaining happiness and piss off모두 다 비이바이 사랑도 모두 다 비이바이 우정도
全部都 Bye Bye 愛情也是 全部都 Bye Bye 友情也是 Bye bye to everything Bye bye to love and everything else even friendship
feels like I'm ready no love I'm done with
끝나버린 사랑이라고해, 더 말할 필요 없잖아
都說了愛情已經結束 不是已經沒什麼好說嗎？
Say that it's an ended love, There's no need for other words
모두 다 비이바이 추억도 모두 다 비이바이 슬픔도
全部都 Bye Bye 記憶也是 全部都 Bye Bye 傷心也是
Bye bye to everything, Bye bye to memories, bye bye to sadness
feels like I'm ready no love I'm done with
끝나버린 사이라고 말해, 다 끝난거야 baby
都說了關係已經結束 全部已告一段落了啊
Say that it's an ended love, There's no need for other words모두 다 바이 모두 다 바이
全部都 Bye 全部都 Bye
Bye bye to everything, Bye bye to everything모두 다 비이바이 추억도 모두 다 비이바이 슬픔도
全部都 Bye Bye 記憶也是 全部都 Bye Bye 傷心也是
Bye bye to everything, Bye bye to memories, bye bye to sadnessfeels like I'm ready no love I'm done with
끝나버린 사이라고 말해, 다 끝난거야
都說了關係已經結束 全部已告一段落了啊
Say that it's an ended love, it's overYou'll never gonna find true love.
모두 다 비이바이 사랑도 모두 다 비이바이 우정도
全部都 Bye Bye 愛情也是 全部都 Bye Bye 友情也是
Bye bye to everything, Bye bye to love and everything else even friendshipfeels like I'm ready no love I'm done with
끝나버린 사랑이라고해, 더 말할 필요 없잖아
都說了愛情已經結束 不是已經沒什麼好說嗎？
Say that it's an ended love, There's no need for other words
모두 다 비이바이 추억도 모두 다 비이바이 슬픔도
全部都 Bye Bye 記憶也是 全部都 Bye Bye 傷心也是
Bye bye to everything, Bye bye to memories, bye bye to sadnessfeels like I'm ready no love I'm done with
끝나버린 사이라고 말해, 다 끝난거야 이젠 굿바이
都說了關係已經結束 全部已告一段落了啊 現在 Goodbye
Say that it's an ended love, it's over Goodbye, now
Deadly life, should I run away?
11:13 PM
No matter now or the future, it was just what I hope, we'll get to be the BFFs forever and ever.
모두 다 비이바이 사랑도 
